Chapter 1: Now, Who Do We Think We Are, Anyway‽

Anyone with a brain can see that the world is in a state of disorder. Wars, riots, bigotry, and other horrors cover the face of the planet. Reports of UFO encounters are on the rise. Governments are either dangerously incompetent or dangerously malevolent. The markets are run by people with no conscience. And yet, we just sit back and consume.
Propaganda in the Western world works this way: alternate between fear and mindlessness. Just look at the television (or don't, because it kills your mind). I have the front page of CNN's website open, and here's what I see:
'Trump, Sanders up in New Hampshire'
'2 college students charged in girl's death'
'The 2016 SAG Awards: Red carpet looks and more'

This kind of output lulls the mind into a hypnotic state of aimless fear and wandering. There's nothing important in it.
It's necessary to understand, however, that this is all part of the actions of the Demiurge. The Demiurge is a sort of 'psychic artificial intelligence' with no will of its own which has the sole purpose of restraining all spirits to the Kenoma, the phenomenal world.
With things being as bad as they are, many people want some kind of 'escape'. Escape takes many forms: rationalising one's problems out of view, absorbing oneself into TV or movies or books or games, purposeless travel, etc.. Yet there is only one method of escape that can truly lead one out of the Kenoma and back to the noumenal Pleroma: Gnosis.
Gnosis itself is a process with many steps: ataraxia (loss of negativity), eudaimonia (acquiring positivity), gnosis itself (intuitive knowledge), and henosis (oneness with the Absolute). But before we can understand how to do that, we first have to map it out.
The person is made up of seven bodies with seven corresponding centres. Right now, though, it's best to concentrate on the lower four.

NumberCentreBodyPlaneCircuit (Leary/Wilson)Vibration level
4Rational centrePsychePsychic planeTime-binding semantic circuit12
3Emotional centreAstral bodyAstral planeMoral socio-sexual circuit24
2Genetic centreEthereal bodyEthereal planeAnal-territorial circuit48
1Motor centreMaterial bodyMaterial planeOral-biosurvival circuit96

Each centre also contains a positive half that strives upward toward syntropy and a negative half that strives downward toward entropy. Now, the person is also a hologram; each centre contains the whole. Thus, each centre contains eight sub-centres, four positive and four negative. Thus we have 32 sub-centres in total.
This is where the Persona comes in. Say the Ego is one's true self. In that case, the Persona is the false self. And it's the Persona that takes care of most of one's internal business while the Ego is asleep. Kinda sucks, doesn't it?
The Persona moves back and forth, up and down amongst the sub-centres through various connections between them, each time claiming that it's the real self. These connections number 1024. So you actually have 1024 conflicting, contradictory little 'selves' or 'I's within you!
Imagine the person as a broken motherboard. Each centre is a microprocessor, each consisting of eight integrated circuits. There are transistors connected to each IC connecting them to every other IC on the board.
Extending this simile/metaphor (and probably getting computer hardware basics all wrong), a strong, long conscious effort can solder together every last microprocessor, forming them into a functioning system that connects with all other systems on the planet.
Ultimately, that last bit is the aim of esotericism.

A final note: you've heard this a million times, most likely, but knowledge is power. Knowledge of your own internal computer will help you become the programmer and the metaprogrammer. Knowledge of Universe will help you transcend and unify with it. Knowledge of the Way will give you the very tools you need to reprogram yourself, Universe, and beyond. Respect your fellow persons, respect all the spirits, respect Universe, and respect yourself. The Way is dangerous, and you will be shunned and spat upon. The Demiurge and all of its powers will fight you with all of their strength, but you shall prevail.
And as the Cassiopaeans have said: 'Knowledge protects. Ignorance endangers.'

(Audio recording.)

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This post is a self-referential tautology.


I must confess that I am no enlightened master.
I, myself, was going through the process. But I do experience clairvoyance and genuine moments of higher thought, so by the principles of synchromysticism, I figure I might be on the right path.
Since the dawn of time, humanity has realised that there is something greater than themselves in the world. The human is regarded as the microcosm; the starry Cosmos the macrocosm. Ever since we developed self-consciousness, our deepest aim has been to unite the two. During psychedelic trips, intense exercise, and peak experiences, we get fleeting understandings of the true bliss of unity.
Throughout this series, I will be presenting a modern, scientific understanding of both ancient tradition and cutting-edge research into the esoteric and the occult. This will be a journey as much for you as for me, and I hope we can all learn what it is to Become and ultimately what it is to Be
This series will be divided into three parts:
  1. Psychology: This section will deal with the examination of the inner life of the human, including both its faults and its limitless potentials.
  2. Cosmology: This one will deal with the mainstream scientific view of creation as well as how it relates to traditional occult models, modern esoteric models, and the inner life of humanity.
  3. Technology: This consists of applied knowledge from the sectors of psychology and cosmology to aid the individual in their spiritual path.

Of course, I draw upon a wide variety of sources, because, as Ken Wilber said, 'Nobody's smart enough to be wrong 100% of the time.' These sources include, but are far from being limited to:
  • Gurdjieff and Mouravieff
  • Prometheus Rising by Robert Anton Wilson
  • Anthroposophy
  • The Zelator
  • The Law of One by 'Ra'
  • The Cassiopaean Transcripts
  • and my own personal observations and revelations.

I'll be happy to see you all in the next article! I hope this marks the start of a brighter, more lucid life for all of us!

(Audio recording.)


I think it's necessary to repeat that one of the most important spiritual exercises possible is regular forgiveness.
By 'regular', I don't mean 'normal', but 'consistent'. What is really necessary is radical forgiveness.
Psychological studies have shown that forgiving someone of the wrongs they have committed against you improves your mental health. Christianity, Islam, Judaism, Buddhism, and a slew of other religions say that forgiveness is necessary for salvation or liberation. Clearly, it's a perennial phenomenon.
But allow me to introduce some metaphysics into this: the average person is a fundamentally neutral (but intellectual) psyche in the psychic plane, possessing (in descending order) an astral (emotional) body, an ethereal (life/orgone) body, and a physical body. Of course, we're 'trapped' in our physical bodies, but that's not the point.
The psyche can either become dark and eventually disintegrate into coarse matter, or it can become light and develop higher bodies: mental (higher emotional), causal (higher intellectual), and spirit (total unity).
Ruminating on wrongdoings serves the effect of blackening the psyche and dragging it back down toward matter. As Gurdjieff would say, it makes you 'food for the Moon'. Unforgiveness is spiritual poison. It disintegrates the self and leads to worse and worse karma.
So what does forgiveness do? Forgiveness is medicine for the soul. It purges karmic debt and loosens the grip of what some call the Matrix.
When someone does evil to you, they leave a karmic 'mark' on you alongside their own karma. It ties you to them. Unforgiveness strengthens this 'mark' until it becomes a monster; true forgiveness can quash the seed before it takes root and slay the dragon even after it has consumed you.
To be candid, I was raped as a child; I told whomever it was at the school that I felt more like a girl than a boy, and he proceeded to rape me multiple times. I have PTSD to this day from it. But, although I don't even remember his name, I forgive him. The mere act of forgiving my rapist has eased the horror quite a bit.
Forgiveness breaks chains of spiritual tyranny and relieves karmic debt. Perhaps, perhaps, if we could all forgive more often and more easily, we'd have a lot more awake people in this world.

The eightfold path of self-realisation, and how it applies to you

Note: This may be recapitulated in a Gnosis entry.
There's probably no more comprehensive system for truly Becoming than that enumerated by Patanjali in his Yoga Sutras. The basic idea can be found in virtually all cultures, but I feel the need to summarise it with real, concrete modern examples. It covers all three stages of conscious awakening as enumerated by my friend Tom Montalk.
All right, here we go!
  1. Ethics

    I've already written about ethics in a recent article, but I'll recap:

    There are objective ethical principles. However, each principle can only be applied relative to the situation. If you're stealing because you want something, that's wrong. If you steal to feed a starving family, that's imperative.

    In general, don't lie, don't steal, don't cheat, and especially practise nonviolence.

  2. Virtue

    Be clean, for one. Nobody likes a stinky person.

    More importantly, don't be a kvetch. Be happy with your existing material possessions. I know I'm guilty of violating this, but most people are. Don't feel bad about it, just fix it. As Father Mouse said in 'Twas the Night Before Christmas: 'It's not enough to be sorry; when you've done something wrong, you have to correct the thing you did.'

    Next up is using your energy. Don't waste yourself in frivolities; do something worthwhile! Art, study, exercise, etc. are all good. Not being a couch potato. Also, it's necessary to pay close attention to oneself at nearly all times. When you can study yourself, you can know yourself. And of course it is necessary to celebrate all the highest ideals—God, the universe, brotherhood, humanity, etc.. Without being in touch with the wonders of being, there really is no being.

  3. Posture

    This may catch some people off guard, but it's true. Good posture enables the energies of life to flow through the body, and as such connect the material body to the spiritual aspects of oneself. Hatha yoga is one method, but qigong, Reichian exercise, and various other methods (even Pilates!) have been developed through the ages to help with this part.

  4. Breath work

    Respiration is one of the hallmarks of life. However, most people don't breathe correctly. All I can say about it is that Éiriú Eolas (condensed here) is the best, most scientific method I've come across

  5. Outer observance

    Now, what I mean here is not investing yourself in either the things happening around you. Psychologists have known this at least since the cognitive-behavioural boom in the '70s. Simply feel what's happening around you without identifying it with yourself.

  6. Inner observance

    Also tying in to cognitive-behavioural theory, this is more about your internal state of mind. Psychologists have noted that it is possible to not identify with your emotions. Emotions are good, don't get me wrong; but when you invest yourself in every little feeling, you lose yourself. What you want to do is, again, to feel your emotions without thinking that they're 'you'.

  7. Rapture

    This corresponds to Tom's 'stage 2'. At this point, you have to lose yourself in meditation. Whether you're meditating on God, Jesus, Allah, Brahman, or even a potted plant, the aim is to really connect with your heart. This doesn't even have to be sitting or lying down; what's important is that you're acting from the heart. This 'grooves' your consciousness to what Fourth Way teachers would call the 'higher emotional centre'. And without the higher emotional centre, the heart, there's no true development. Make sure that you have an uplink to your higher emotional centre, and you're set.

  8. Unity

    This is the Golden Child of spiritual development. Not only are you in a positive flow, you combine this with lucid awareness. This is total self-actualisation; complete integration. It corresponds to Tom's third stage of awakening. At this point, you're in positive lucidity. Don't make the mistake that this is a state where you just sit on your ass 24/7 in an incomprehensible bliss. Now, the incomprehensible bliss is there, since your higher emotional centre is active, but your higher intellectual centre is also active at this point. You have a real 'I'.

    So you actually have tons of energy, and you put that energy to good work. 'Enlightened' people don't just sit around in caves all day, neglecting the outside world; no, they're out there trying to ensure that everyone can develop to that point. An enlightened person devotes verself to the physical and spiritual well-being of others, realising that as we are all One, truly ensuring their own well-being is dependent on the well-being of others.

Of course, this is a 'beginner's course', but it's all true, as far as I can see. It's universal and practical knowledge that should be the day-to-day lifestyle of every self-respecting spirit.
As some parting words: 'Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.' (Luke 17:21)

Is Trump really a fascist?

As a civil libertarian and a member of various marginalised groups (Jewish, transgender, queer, disabled), I'm worried about Trump.
Not only is his own rhetoric hateful and (possibly even more importantly) authoritarian, I worry about the future Trump is going to usher in. After all, Hitler won power by a simple, perfectly legal election.
So, without further ado, I'll cite the 14 defining characteristics of fascism, and see how well Trump matches up to them in his own words:
  1. Powerful and continuing nationalism.

    'Make America Great Again!' (Need I say more?)

  2. Disdain for the recognition of human rights.

    'I think Snowden [the whistleblower who exposed mass NSA surveillance] is a terrible threat, I think he’s a terrible traitor, and you know what we used to do in the good old days when we were a strong country—you know what we used to do to traitors, right?'

  3. Identification of 'enemies' or scapegoats as a unifying cause.

    'When Mexico sends its people, they’re not sending their best. They’re not sending you. They’re not sending you. They’re sending people that have lots of problems, and they’re bringing those problems with us. They’re bringing drugs. They’re bringing crime. They’re rapists. And some, I assume, are good people.'

    'Donald J. Trump is calling for a total and complete shutdown of Muslims entering the United States until our country's representatives can figure out what the hell is going on!'

  4. Supremacy of the military.

    'We’re going to make our military ... so powerful that we’re never going to have to use it.'

  5. Rampant sexism.

    Hooo boy…I'll just pick a couple horrific things rather than run the whole gamut:

    '26,000 unreported sexual assults in the military-only 238 convictions. What did these geniuses expect when they put men & women together?'

    'I don’t think Ivanka would do that [pose for Playboy], although she does have a very nice figure. I’ve said if Ivanka weren’t my daughter, perhaps I’d be dating her.' (Holy shit is this horrifying)

    'Rosie O'Donnell is disgusting—both inside and out. If you take a look at her, she's a slob. How does she even get on television? If I were running The View, I'd fire Rosie. I'd look her right in that fat, ugly face of hers and say, "Rosie, you're fired." We're all a little chubby but Rosie's just worse than most of us. But it's not the chubbiness—Rosie is a very unattractive person, both inside and out.' (I actually like Rosie. She's not only courageous enough to be openly lesbian and an independent woman, she's even more courageous for daring to question the official narrative on 9/11.)

  6. Controlled mass media.

    'We have to go see Bill Gates and a lot of different people that really understand what's happening. We have to talk to them about, maybe in certain areas, closing that Internet up in some way…Somebody will say, "Oh, freedom of speech, freedom of speech." These are foolish people.' (emphasis added)

  7. Obsession with national security.

    'But I do want databases for those people coming in, but I also insist on a wall. And it was all fine, all of a sudden I end up with some story, and I’m saying, what are you talking about? So here’s the story—just to say it clear—I want surveillance of these people. I want surveillance if we have to, and I don’t care. Are you ready for this folks? Are you ready? They’re going to make it such a big deal…I want surveillance of certain mosques.'

  8. Religion and government are intertwined.

    'We've done great with the evangelicals. The evangelicals have been amazing.…We're going to protect Christianity. If you look what's going on throughout the world—you look at Syria, where if you're Christian, they're chopping off heads.' (Notice that he didn't say that we're going to protect Christians, but that we're going to protect Christianity itself.)

  9. Corporate power is protected.

    Well, first off, he's a corporatist billionaire himself—but let him speak on the issue:

    'Pfizer is talking about moving to Ireland. Or someplace else…Do you know how big that is? It would wipe out New Jersey…They have $2.5 trillion sitting out of the country that they can’t get back because they don’t want to pay the tax. Nor would I…We should let them back in. Everybody. Even if you paid nothing it would be a good deal. Because they’ll take that money then and use it for other things. But they’ll pay something. Ten percent, they’ll pay something.'

  10. Labour power is suppressed.

    Now, for this one, actions speak louder than words:

    No Surprise: Trump Is a Union Buster at His Own Hotel

  11. Disdain for intellectuals and the arts.

    Now, Trump actually brings up his Ivy League degree a lot. But that doesn't mean that he doesn't have some covert anti-intellectual tendencies:

    'We're going to be cutting tremendous amounts of money and waste and fraud and abuse. But, no, I'm not cutting services, but I am cutting spending.…But I may cut Department of Education—Common Core is a very bad thing. I think that it should be local education. If you look at a Jeb Bush and some of these others, they want children to be educated by Washington, D.C. bureaucrats.' (I have my own qualms with Common Core, but defunding education in general is not my preferred solution.)

  12. Obsession with crime and punishment.

    'Today if the cops ever did that [use force] they'd have 'em arrested and given the electric chair.…They didn't do wrong. They were just forceful. They were strong. And today it's not even politically correct to say that.…I'm a big fan of the police, but I think the police now are afraid to act. They're afraid to be tough.'

  13. Rampant cronyism and corruption.

    'I fully understand the conservative approach, but I don’t think it was explained to most conservatives. Nobody knows this better than I do, because I’ve built a lot of buildings in Manhattan and you’ll have twelve sites and you’ll get eleven and you’ll have the one holdout, and you end up building around them. I know it better than anybody.' (On eminent domain. Obviously, he'll have no qualms about using the government to grant his buddies more money and power.)

  14. Fraudulent elections.

    Well, the election's in November, so we'll have to wait and see on him personally being elected. But this quote sums up his position:

    'When you give [money], they [politicians] do whatever the hell you want them to do.'

So that's Trump and his fascism. Is there any doubt about it any more? Trump has one goal, and that goal is to turn the United States into a full-fledged Fourth Reich in service of the pathocratic elite. The fact that Hillary is the presumptive nominee for the Democrats and that the Donald is the presumptive nominee for the Republicans proves once and for all that we do not under any circumstances have a democratic system. We have an increasingly authoritarian state that's being pushed toward imperialist fascism under the guidance of a handful of psychopaths.

Praxis and doxis; orthodoxy and orthopraxy

One of the troubles of modern religion is the issue of 'orthodoxy', which simply means correct belief (doxis being the root of the word doctrine), and 'orthopraxy', which is correct action.
Historically, religion has focused more on orthodoxy than orthopraxy. However, this attitude is part of why people are leaving traditional religions. Because religion insists that praxis (action) is reliant on doxis, the individual is left out of the discussion and forced to either surrender to a static idea or leave and find their own way. And yet, religions wonder what is driving people (especially the younger generations) away.
By elevating doxis over praxis, traditional religion offers little room for individual thought, reason, and intuition. The tyranny of doxis ends individual questioning and seeking, and thus stops the path to true spirituality at a dead end.
The solution is actually very simple: make praxis king and let doxis be a matter of the individual's thought.
Rudolf Steiner, the Christian mystic and founder of Anthroposophy (which provided me with these lovely fonts), realised this over a century ago. With his book The Philosophy of Freedom, he introduced a theory called ethical individualism, brilliantly explained here. However, it can be easily explained as such: ethical principles, although objective, are still relative to each situation.
This idea prioritises praxis over doxis. By emphasising the need for individual seeking, intuition, and reasoning, it shows that following the impulses of spirit is more important than submitting blindly to dogma.
Unless mainstream religions can allow adherents to develop individual thought, they'll see more and more people identify as 'spiritual but not religious'.

New series of posts!

I will be adding a category marked 'Gnosis'. I have been reading Gnosis by Boris Mouravieff and find it brilliant and useful in virtually every way. I'm currently 114 pages into the first book.
I will be posting modernised reinterpretations of as much of it as possible, interspersed with my own personal insights. Given the division of the original, they'll also be tagged as 'psychology' (for studies of the inner life), 'cosmology' (for studies of the outer life), and 'technology' (for practical applications of Work).
At some point, they'll probably be collected and published as a book. No tentative title as of yet.
Stay tuned!

About to get my blood and, uh, effluvium tested for signs of various things

So…yeah. Yuck.
But, in any case, it's for my own good.
I've been sick for about a month and a half now, and it's about damn time something is done about it.
I'm getting tested for:
  • C. difficile infection,
  • Coeliac disease,
  • Various other gut problems,
  • Anti-nuclear antibody levels,
  • Possibly Lyme again?
  • And probably something to do with something autoimmune (other than coeliac and A.N.A.).
So I'm hoping I get a clear answer within about a week or so about what exactly the hell is wrong with me. I'm not gonna wallow in self-pity so that I can live the rest of my life a vegetable; I just want the diagnosis done so that it can be treated and/or medicated properly and I can continue the Work and live a fuller life.
So as of now, I'm cautiously optimistic. (Éiriú Eolas really does do wonders for the stress; I used to be pretty pessimistic about my overall diagnosis.) I'm expecting that it might be either continued Lyme or some kind of general autoimmune disease which can be medicated to stop the pain, spasms, and fatigue.
Now, I'm off in a second, so wish me luck!
—Eva Gnostiquette

New words for a third gender in English!

Since plenty of people from cultures without a strong third-gender tradition feel that they belong to a third gender (and not just bigender or agender), I've invented two new words for people wishing to express themselves as such:
Instead of 'man' or 'woman': neiman. Derives from Old English 'náwþer', meaning, roughly, 'neutral'.
Instead of 'male' or 'female': virmale. Derives from Latin 'vir' (human) and a French corruption of Latin 'más', much in the same way that 'female' was derived from a forcing of Latin 'femella' into the mould of 'male'.
I recommend ve/ver/vis/verself pronouns. They seem to fit in with the 'vir' theme.
Anyway, happy gender exploration!

Eva Gnostiquette

Eva Gnostiquette
My name is Eva Gnostiquette.
I'm a multimedia artist, podcaster, game developer, programmer, and aspiring physicist and neuroscientist. I'm an Oriental Orthodox Christian.
I enjoy reading, music, and various other things. I write about nerd stuff, spirituality, and conspiracy theories, alongside more mainstream politics and science.
I am also a queer trans girl of Jewish, Welsh, Irish, and Scottish descent with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, OCD, and PTSD.
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